" 1 luka "

Un papel... un papel verde, un papel verde con numero, un papel verde con el número "1000".
Tan insignificante, tan pequeño
se quema con facilidad, si se moja se rompe, se corta, se triza, desvalorado por la mayoria...
cómo algo tan pequeño, tan indefenso, tan desvalorado puede imprimir una sonrrisa en la cara de alguien?......
Desde que uno adquiere conocimiento de la vida, pasa mayor parte del tiempo pensando en metas, objetos que quiere adquerir para nuestra propia felicidad... miramos a los que piden como un estorbo, utilizamos frases como "sólo tengo para la micro" o "No, gracias" y colocamos nuestra más tierna y cínica sonrrisa que encontramos y seguimos de largo. Es comprensible, no es una crítica, yo también lo hago, todos lo hacemos. Pero...quién realmente sin ver un cartel, sin que te pidan, sin que te presionen, sin que conoscas la situación real, sin que te esten mirando, ha ayudado por el simple hecho de ayudar....?
Uno mira gente, yo miro mucha gente sobre tdoo cuando voy en la micro, es innebitable no apretar la cartera cuando sube alguien deshaciado o con "tinta de flaite", esta vez no lo hice, ni lo mire, no me fije en ellos, hasta que una mano que provenía de detrás mio aparece tocandole el hombro a un niño, si, había un niño, hijo de esta persona, era un pequeño niño, con carita de pena, un "russio", como diría mi madre; arrastraba un pequeño bolso que te aseguro debe haber pesado más que él. al sentir esta mano puso cara de no entender nada. Esta mano inteligente sólo toco al niño cuando este se iba bajando, nadie miro, nadie se dio cuenta, pero yo logre ver, esta mano, que nunca supe de quien era entrego en la mano al pequeño niño dos papeles perfectamente doblados. Eran dos billetes de 1000.

" Slepless in concepción "

( So... 4 days, no sleep.... is not funny, but i have to say that i am used to... so... i am ok. )
some people say, that person how can not sleep, are stress people, people how have to many thing to think about. i can´t say that i am agree with that, but i have to say that there is so many thinks that you think when you don´t sleep. thinks that many aren´t so important, but they are crucial in someway.
i had been living 4 days, living at half way. i live half in my wake dreams and the other half in my thoughts.
thought that more than thought, they are more like it the rain. they don´t have an estructure, they just fall down.
in what are you thinking Javiera?
why you can´t sleep?
are you inlove?
so many question....cero answer...!
Frustration... that´s a good answer...
frustration about the life...
frustration about you want to do, but you can do because you are to young, or because you don´t got the many enought to do it... i am not anhappy with my life, don´t get that impression. i am just saying that when you have to much time to think, you started to thinks stupid things!
i which that i could be in another place, in United Stated of America, for example. i dream to be there, i can´t wait, to be sit in a Starbuck drinking a ig mocckalate, decafe, nonfat (because at starbuck you got so many different options, for a person how is used to take just one decition at the day, like "what i am going to ware?" be at an starbuck open your mind in so many different option) an listen that all the people around me are talking in english...
i have to admit that all my life i dream about go away from Chile, is not because Chile is not good enought, is just because i beleave that i can do so many things been in a pleace where i areally wana be, because when you are or you do thing just because you have, you don´t put your 100% of your self, you put only the 20%, and i don´t like that i am that kind of persons how gaves there 120%.

me acabo de dar cuenta que me desvie un poquitin del tema...en fin.... se me acaba de quitar la inspiracion!...se dieron cuenta (estoy escribiendo en español, que mejor indicio de eso)...

45th aniversary

Everybody thinks, (or everybody wants) that they are going to spend the rest of there lifes with someone special. That they are going to be happy and that they going to have this big family with alot of kids.... that´s what everybody wants, that´s what i want.

In new year, more than the welcome for another year, it was the special day where my grandfathers celebrates there 45th aniversary.

but what are 45 years next to somebody else if at the end of that period of time you can´t kiss you wife/housband in public. i really don´t get it...

for took thoose pictures i had to pray to them. well more to my grandfather.

They love each-other, i know that, maybe because they are from another period of time, maybe because of the religion, or maybe because my grandfather is all work.... but no matter how much i adore them i have to face the true that they have this big wired and inexpressive relationship.

or maybe is just that i hope to much for my future relationship. but wen i think about my future, i think about that ...well i know that i am not going to feel butterflies after 45 years of marriage. but i want to beleave that everytime that i look in to his eyes i am going to see "my home". i want to beleave that he´s going to want to spend (or going to try to spend) the biggest time posible with me.

maybe i dream to much

but i am not going to be with someone just because

or i am not going to accept everything in the other person just because "what the people will say"...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008

Happy happy new year...
or welcome 2008.
For this new year i did what i never think to do... i took a bag and i got on a chair right before midnite (i have to travel this year to any cost)
it was hell of a night... i just have 2 words for that night
"Open Bar"....yeah baby yeah
well i am not much a drinking person, but if you considerate the fact that we were practicly alone in that restaurant and that everyone else were old people (because the young people went to "Elevate" after midnite) ..and the music, it was terrible!... you got two options, or you depress yourself trying to make the Dj understand that he is not good at it... or you enjoy the open bar
what did i did?
I Enjoy the open bar, ofcourse.
well no everything was horrible....the food was wonderfull, the service as well... and the company nothing to say about it, couldn´t be better...
i spended a wonderfull time with my brother-in-law family...
how wouldn´t i?... i have a great person in there, Paula she is the older sister of my brother-in-law...but she joing me in all my time at the bar...
i drunk:
champagne-vino tinto-vaina-tequila sunrise, golpeado-Caipirinha y caipirinha de vino-martini dry, martini vodka y martini gruuse-laguna azul-kunstmann bock...but i am not going to say how much of each one of thoose... but it was alot!
but no matter how waisted i was...i didn´t do any show... i stay sit at the bar drinking... jajajajja... i remember that i asked to the barman "How do you know so much about drink?".... DAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! the stupid question ever!!
i spended a lovelly time!